Have you ever gone to visit a landmark, all excited to see this marvel of architecture in real life - and then been disappointed when you arrived because it was shrouded with scaffolding? It is disappointing, but would be even worse if no-one ever maintained or repaired the building and it crumbled away. Because scaffolding … Continue reading Scaffolding
Waiting for the results of medical tests is one of life's exquisite tortures. One morning I was at work trying to concentrate on my tasks while waiting for the phone call with results of a biopsy. Waiting to find out if I had cancer. A couple of days before, that sort of thing wasn't even … Continue reading Good news for anyone who can breathe
'I don't have any choice'. The utterance of resignation. Acceptance, but grudging acceptance. These words put you in a place of disempowerment, which never feels good. They're not even necessarily true. Most of the time we have a choice, but we choose not to acknowledge that. Or the choices are so obvious it doesn't feel … Continue reading Choice
Recently I have been having a thought occur to me numerous times a day, and I'm guessing that many other people have the exact same thought at some time or other - 'I really should meditate every day.' I admit I have fairly good reason to think that. I meditated without fail every day for … Continue reading I should meditate
I went to the psychiatrist a couple of weeks ago. I see him every six months or so, usually to assure him that I’m fine and get out of there as fast as possible before he prescribes me more medication. I don’t want to go because I like to tell myself that chapter of my … Continue reading Empathy begins at home
I am committed to being alive. I never used to be. I just drifted along dealing with whatever came up, thinking life would begin properly once this particular crisis had passed, or I was feeling better, or I had a job, or I had a different job. I was a disinterested party in my own … Continue reading Are you committed to your life?
As I was being wheeled into the anaesthetic bay for one of my surgeries, a nurse said to me: “Remember to do something that brings you joy every day.” By that stage I had figured that out for myself, but I still appreciated the advice. For the period of time that I was preoccupied with … Continue reading Moments of Joy