I feel like I am waking up after 25 years in a coma. The dark haze of depression, psychosis and illness that was my reality for my entire adult life has slowly cleared and I am now blinking and rubbing my eyes as I stumble into the light of a new reality. New experiences abound … Continue reading The past is gone
Recently I have been having a thought occur to me numerous times a day, and I'm guessing that many other people have the exact same thought at some time or other - 'I really should meditate every day.' I admit I have fairly good reason to think that. I meditated without fail every day for … Continue reading I should meditate
I went to the psychiatrist a couple of weeks ago. I see him every six months or so, usually to assure him that I’m fine and get out of there as fast as possible before he prescribes me more medication. I don’t want to go because I like to tell myself that chapter of my … Continue reading Empathy begins at home
I’ve had a rough few days of feeling physically and mentally unwell. I can’t pinpoint the cause; maybe it’s hormones (or the ‘moans’ as I call them). Since having been plunged into a sudden early menopause by chemo drugs my moans are pretty mutinous. Whatever the cause, I am pulling out of it now, having … Continue reading Hello crapness my old friend…
I am committed to being alive. I never used to be. I just drifted along dealing with whatever came up, thinking life would begin properly once this particular crisis had passed, or I was feeling better, or I had a job, or I had a different job. I was a disinterested party in my own … Continue reading Are you committed to your life?
For so many years I felt no anger. I was so deeply depressed I had gone beyond sadness into a flat desert wasteland of numbness. There were no highs, no lows; if you had asked me how I was I would have said 'fine' and meant it. I wasn't in anguish like I had previously … Continue reading The power of anger
I need to tell you something. You are amazing. Yes, I know that sounds cliched and you've seen a dozen social media quotes just this morning saying that exact same thing, but just let all that fluff and noise go for a moment – I'm being serious now. You're amazing because wherever you are now, … Continue reading We need to talk